Enough

I think I've done enough this time
I don't even care
I'm tired of going through this pain
Just to lay the past bare
The pictures haunt me day and night
Until I want to die
I never will get anywhere
Asking myself why
I don't know what my goal is now
If not just to keep on
But why can't I do that without
Knowing what went wrong
The dark is crushing, mind-blowing
I'm chewed up and spit out
It will kill me someday soon
Of that, I have no doubt
I can't think of any reason
To climb up this hill
Even if I reach the summit
I'll be struggling still
So all in all, the more I think
I'll quit while I'm ahead
Instead of waiting for this path
To at last make me dead
I'll walk away, shut myself down
Give up the hope of peace
I've done it enough all my life
I'll do it now with ease